Wedding bells....ringing ringing and now...

Wedding bells is ringing ringing ringing.....

ever since last year..attended my close gf's wedding and being a part of her happiness make me felt so honor...and so does bell's wed. We had great fun "disturbing" the brothers with all my evil ideas..hot cakes with chili tuna and lots of maple syrup, bittergourd juice with lemon and chinese tea leaves...taking photo around the hotel also so fun..

I just can't stop smiling and thinking back all the fun we had..to b honest, it is very tiring but it is really FUN!

Now..my wedding bell is ringing too...thanks to bell..

I always tot that i'm able to cope this stress like finding hotels or restaurant for our day but it is so stressful when you can't find one that can hold 60 to 70 tables on this day (bcos it a hot day, a weekend). Now, I found a place that is end of west hopefully all the guest could come.

Next, is to settle my bridal gown and photographer and ermmm...wedding favors.....etc...

Wish me luck... =]

losing weight..

losing weight is always hard to maintain...has been trying to lose weight over the week just to get myself ready and fit into the cheong sum which bell's mtm for us for her wedding...

*shocking! i didn't expect myself to put on that much tat i have to redo the cheong sum at $40 which is damn ex..but..wat to do..LL lor..

ltr in the evening will be going to chinatown to collect my cheong sum.. hopefully the dress is done and i can fit in with extra tiny space for me to eat and drink... also not forgetting to get the bb cream from this wonderful shop that sells beauty products from "nu ren wo zui da". I got my bb cream from that shop...its good..non oily and it is will cover off my freckles..not completely but it does lighter the freckles...will be getting 1 more for my bro's gf.. =]

about us and only me...從開始到現在

Last nite, i was feeling low...cried, drank a btl of beer and I'm tired over me being to stubborn in our relationship..

I always loves to be sticky around each other..like we can't do without each other unless the death do us apart..
And..i always let him be..drink with friends, club and do wat he thinks he should be doing with his own space but i was wrong...i can't...i wan him to change...change him to someone i wan to be with...someone do things together, go party together, attend function together, spending equal time with our family together....

Thinking back, I wish i could turn back time..back to 3 yrs ago and stopped that moment when i was at Istanbul airport to transit to Swiss for my studies..bcos at that time I truely know and feel he love me..

Now...i'm not sure..

Maybe he still love and never change but I'd change....I love him even more and I guess I've loved him too much..
i guess after all.. i'm N.A.I.V.E. naive is the word to decribe me when i'm in relationship...

I nv nv nv say he is the wrong man that i want to spend my life with...but i can't accept that I'm at home and he is out to party and he thinks is rite to do so...i'm tired...i've lost my way...i lost the always in us...i couldn't find us in the same picture anymore...i hate this feeling!!!

Wat should i do??

Learn to let go?

I am so so so emo...i need to b alone..going away for awhile......

First poker game...

First time playing poker and i realise I'm not a good poker player..i just not smart enough..when is time to raise, i didn't and when is time to fold, i didn't...but it was a good experience afterall...

Playing poker online is still better...cos the players dun get to see my expression so i will be able to play any how i want...

playing poker nd to focus n bluff..u nd to understand the game well and also bluff at the rite time so first timer will always get the pinch..*ooouch

Back to wrk after MC...new year checklist

1 day mc gone..and back to ofc again...feeling so weak and walking like a zombie...the med is strong and good in a way...throat felt better..no more running nose but nose is still blocked...

well...i nd to have a new year checklist for grooming myself with new look...ermmm...
1) get my hair done (rebond?perm?)
2) target to lose weight b4 bell's wedding (2 wks)
3)
4)

i nd to time to think but the first 2 is wat i nd to do...at least for now!!!

lets get my ass working...

Last nite, i was watching quan yi fung and christopher lee hosting the "xin qing da dong yuan 2" the story of jia yong..i really find him a cheerful guy..always in postitive thinking and his mum is really "wei da" bcos she kept the house clean to make his family feel home and she took care of him thru all this years...her loves for him I'm really "pei fu".

Jia yong and family..jia you!

First day of work in 2010 with MC cover

yaya...i noe monday blues but i didn't expect to turn out to be sick sick and sick...bad flu w cough and my poor boy down with cough and fever...

And this time i'm clever..becos i dragged myself to work and went to co. doc so that I will get an authorised MC to shut my co.

Now, I'm feeling weak after the med....i nd to slp....