Last nite, i was feeling low...cried, drank a btl of beer and I'm tired over me being to stubborn in our relationship..
I always loves to be sticky around each other..like we can't do without each other unless the death do us apart..
And..i always let him be..drink with friends, club and do wat he thinks he should be doing with his own space but i was wrong...i can't...i wan him to change...change him to someone i wan to be with...someone do things together, go party together, attend function together, spending equal time with our family together....
Thinking back, I wish i could turn back time..back to 3 yrs ago and stopped that moment when i was at Istanbul airport to transit to Swiss for my studies..bcos at that time I truely know and feel he love me..
Now...i'm not sure..
Maybe he still love and never change but I'd change....I love him even more and I guess I've loved him too much..
i guess after all.. i'm N.A.I.V.E. naive is the word to decribe me when i'm in relationship...
I nv nv nv say he is the wrong man that i want to spend my life with...but i can't accept that I'm at home and he is out to party and he thinks is rite to do so...i'm tired...i've lost my way...i lost the always in us...i couldn't find us in the same picture anymore...i hate this feeling!!!
Wat should i do??
Learn to let go?
I am so so so emo...i need to b alone..going away for awhile......
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