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I dun noe wat is wrong with me...i'm feeling excited about something and yet i am not sure about it!!
I dun think is about my ROM or my new job. I just feel butterfly inside my tummy!! Arrgghhh~~

or mayb I'm excited with my Hens nite??? well..i really dunnoe... - _____________-''

Nice?

Haha..nice..found this rom dress on one of the bridal website and this is the one i chosen for my ROM but but..i dun noe whether they keep for me even though we verbally confirm.

For BTB..

女人我最大 teaches how to pose for wedding shoot and how to choose our wedding gown and dress..
QUICK look...


女人我最大 2010-02-03 pt.1/5 免修片也能拍出激瘦夢幻婚紗照

Stress n stress n stress

I wonder why losing weight is always so difficult than gaining weight? I have been putting on weight over this 3 yrs plus and felt so demonise when he keep saying i'm fat! he will always say nv or..he would say still fat..so wat is the point to lose weight when he still tink i'm fat!

ROM is near and i feel excited about it but somehow i feel he is not ready..or mayb i'm not ready..i just had mixed feeling..damn sian man..i need a BREAK!!!!!

Tots after class..

Have been attending 2 wonderful class which I'm familar with...Convention Sales and Food & Beverage Mgmt...kinda weird to attend classes like this..because all the lecturer that teaches this topic either grads from SHATEC or wrk with familar people which i know..

And I'm great to know that my passion for meeting people and service industry is still in me! I think im ready to go again...all the way just like b4 but this time round maybe slightly different..NO MORE WAITRESS..

Feli go go go n go...

sick and tired~

i'm so sick and tired of working at the current place..have been searching for new jobs for weeks yet..work i like w interest didn't reply..those i dun like, replied and lots...finacial planner, investment planner, insurance etc....common..im not into this kind of jobs..i need to strike and work hard and move around like event or HR or Training and develop or mayb being some model or actor's Nanny also good wat....sooooooo why can't these jobs call me instead??

how how how!!!!!???? so fan!!!! when can i really work at a place that pay me high till i WILLING to work for them? arrrghhhhh!!!

Preview..Mr & Mrs Emmett Tan....counting down to 17 May 10

Created this thru daisypath.com

11 Apr....12 Apr...

What to post about 11 & 12 Apr?
Bcos......i went for a swim on 11 and get his white legendary washed by my wonderful hand and I'M FEELING GOOOOOOOD about it bcos I see myself a little tanned and the car is white and shinny..........

As for 12 Apr, it was our 1st appointment with HDB and we are getting our house in 6 weeks time...so excited about it even though I have been staying in tat house for the past 3yr and 9 mths..and he have been there...like 9-10yrs or more..(not sure)..btw..I just can't wait to move into the master bed-room (since his parent offer to swope the room), renovation and and and new furniture for our room and living room....

But this also remind me that i'm running out of time to lose my weight..so...determination is the WORD i need now...run alternate day and swim on the even day....but i think hor...very difficult w my timing..ermmmm...run on friday nite and swim on sat and sun afternoon? sound good..=]

Below is wat i choose for my ROM and the ring we got from lee wah...can't wait man....

ROM dress

Our wedding band - blur bcos of my bb wasnt gd enough to take nice pic..-bad thing about bb =(

signed offffffffffffffffffffffffff..

1st photoshoot done by J&J and 1 friend...

My first photoshoot...kinda weird but fun and the overall pic taken still not bad...mayb is me that feel funny...do give comment as this will actually help my friend in his future career...QUICK feedback!!

=]

39 days..38 days...37 days..and still counting...
Because this day I will hold ur hand and walk into Register of Marriage office together with our parents and withness tis day as husband n wife..


BUT HOR....where is my propose har??? So sickening isn't it that i dun have a "qiu hun" thing...YES YES YES! Ppl i know i shouldn't agree if he didn't propose..but wat to do..my man isn't a romantic guy..


Anyway,  after busy week and exams..finally i have some time for myself to drink and gossip..I had a great time chilling out at wala wala last nite w bomb n hong wen ..catch up some gossip and i finally got a rose from a guy..so sweet of bomb (he just pity me...25 yrs old still no rose)...haha..


After chilling w them, i went over to kevin's bday celebration at Club house...drink again..but i didn't drink too much as i need to drive...had supper which I KNOW I SHOULD NOT HAVE but thank you god I only have half the roti john...I KNOW STILL ALOT BUT AT LEAST I DIDN'T FINISH IT...lolololollllzzz XOXO


We took lots of pic just waiting for mr kev to wake up and post... but i have the rose pic for now..
Da Dang!!!!!!

Thank you MR Bomb!

Well updates again...

7 MONTHS TO GO

Book a wedding date with ROM - Done and I'm gg to be Mrs.Tan in 37 days
Confirm venue and discuss menu. - Done
Buy wedding bands. - Done and collected
Organise your entertainment. - Not gg to do it
Music selection - still consolating
Confirm salon, dresses and suits. Book hair and makeup. - Done
Shop for bridesmaids' and groomsmen's outfits. - Using wat TWD provides
Wedding favors - still deciding
Compile the guest list with your fiance/fiancee and both parents. - still pending


6 MONTHS TO GO
Confirm with all vendor and flower arrangement - Kind of
Book Chalet or Rooms for Brother and Sister. -  dump off the idea
Confirm menus - TBA on 17 May


3 MONTHS TO GO
Finalise guest list and start planning seating arrangements.
Confirm transportation for AD
Send reminders for venues
Research and book photography/videography packages. - Found and confirmed
Confirm all wedding decor ideas, bouquets, centerpieces.
Discuss different looks with hair and makeup artists and go for trials.


2 MONTHS TO GO
Send out local invitations.
Choose thank-you gifts for attendants
Organise seating arrangements.


1 MONTH TO GO
Chase late RSVPs, finalise guest list and seating arrangements.
Confirm that your gowns and those of your bridesmaids will be ready on time.
Prepare fees or hongbao where applicable, e.g. for officiant, and your bridesmaids and groomsmen.
Start breaking in your shoes so they won't pinch on the day.
Confirm all other arrangements that have not been finalised.


1 - 2 WEEKS TO GO
Collect dresses.
Enjoy your hen and stag dos.
Arrange for bridal flowers to be sent to your home early on the day.
Finalise all minor arrangements that haven't been do.
Arrange for a bridesmaid to accompany and help you on the day.
Give all payments to best man; leave him to pay the respective people.
Booking for facial, pedi and medi, spa.


Nw..back to wrk and shall look forward to knock off...and meet up w JU...miss her so much..

Expected trip turn to be unexpected news...RIP ah gong~

I dunnoe how to start...

It was 2030hr on 1st April, when both of us is up at Genting casino-ing, an unexpected called from his brother that Ah gong is gone...it wasn't an April fool joke..it was a trembling news for him and me..

I always thot i would have the chance to call him Ah Gong officially with him having our tea ceremony nxt month..

We didn't expected it and wanted to rush home immediately..but the sky was dark and we couldn't see the road well so we decided to leave the nxt day.   On the way back, he was driving at the speed of 160-180km/hr..i was scared and understand how fast he wants to be my ah gong's side..

We rch Singapore at 1730hr..get changed and went to ah gong's funeral..it was the first night and everyone was there with red teary eyes...I couldn't stop crying after seeing ah gong's picture and his body laying inside the coffin...my impression of ah gong was tall and big size..but now...he was skinny and small size hardly see his shoulder.. Ah gong have been a good warrior that he fight w the cancer cells for months..he was really doing good till he fall sick on 1 April..

Ytd 5 April, its the last day having ah gong with us..bcos in the afternoon..we will walk the last journey with him..ah ma was strong and didn't cried till ytd..all of us couldn't bear to see ah gong go..we took turns to see him the last time..Emmett and I went to see him and say goodbye..his tears was rolling down when he say goodbye tapping on ah gong's "shoulder"..

miss u ah gong~~~ RIP

sickening...

i tot i love my job..indeed yes BUT the people (HR) is $$sucker...

whenever ppl comment on some things there is always reason..so i hated them with reason is that they claim is reasonable..
1) late for 1 min, pay will be deducted as 1 hr late ($2)
2) MC can b claim by Polyclinic only, private clinic are not approved
3) Annual leave is not given but u have to earn the 14 days urself..if not..pay will be deducted and it is not a small amt but $70 plus per day.. (I'm goin on leave for exam week and thats leads to 4 days no pay leave)

Bloody Shi* arrrghhhhrhhhhhh!!!!

anyway..i'm going to leave this place once I got a better job with better pay..!!!

Congrats Lena and Davidson!

Last sunday, was an amazing wedding dinner at Suntec..its LENA & DAVIDSON big day!

Lena did "behave" herself with her beautiful dress..so pretty!

Here,
I wish them - Happiness surround them always with junior davidson soon...hee =D

My Checklist updates..

8 MONTHS TO GO
Book a wedding date with ROM - Y
Confirm venue and discuss menu. - Y
Buy wedding bands. - Y
Organise your entertainment. - Kinda of
Music selection - Jazz? but all will leave it to his sis
Confirm salon, dresses and suits. Book hair and makeup. - Y
Shop for bridesmaids' and groomsmen's outfits, wedding favors etc. - Y for all except wedding favors
Compile the guest list with your fiance/fiancee and both parents. - still pending

6 MONTHS TO GO
Confirm with all vendor and flower arrangement - Kind of
Book Chalet or Rooms for Brother and Sister. - pending
Confirm menus - TBA on 17 May

3 MONTHS TO GO
Finalise guest list and start planning seating arrangements. - N
Confirm transportation for AD - N
Send reminders for venues - N
Research and book photography/videography packages. - N
Confirm all wedding decor ideas, bouquets, centerpieces. - N
Discuss different looks with hair and makeup artists and go for trials. Confirm looks. - N

2 MONTHS TO GO
Send out local invitations. - N
Choose thank-you gifts for attendants - N
Organise seating arrangements. - N

1 MONTH TO GO
Chase late RSVPs, finalise guest list and seating arrangements. - N
Confirm that your gowns and those of your bridesmaids will be ready on time. - N
Prepare fees or hongbao where applicable, e.g. for officiant, and your bridesmaids and groomsmen. - N
Start breaking in your shoes so they won't pinch on the day. - Y but planning to get another one..hee
Confirm all other arrangements that have not been finalised. - N

 1 - 2 WEEKS TO GO
Collect dresses. - N
Enjoy your hen and stag dos. - N
Arrange for bridal flowers to be sent to your home early on the day. - N
Finalise all minor arrangements that haven't been do. - N
Arrange for a bridesmaid to accompany and help you on the day. - N
Give all payments to best man; leave him to pay the respective people. - N
Booking for facial, pedi and medi, spa - N

ON THE DAY
Let your chief bridesmaid or planner take charge of everything which includes reminding the other attendants of their duties. - N
Relax and enjoy your wedding day ! - I WILL!

Well, after spending hours at BS and jellewery shop..finally i have settle some I think is should be done so I can relax for awhile..thanks to PK and Micos accompanieeee..w/o you two i think both of us will not be able to finish 2 things in 1 day...hahaha.. =]
Continue to update this list very time i blog about wedding stuffs...

I am so dead!!!

2 things that shot me to D.I.E

1) My work..now is the busy period..packing up 289 VCD packages, 100 plus MH and 36 boxes of E.drawing into boxes and sending them to somewhere i dunnoe and before sending them to clue-less place...it will go into the "stupid" container that is SPACELESS for me to move the boxes around bcos of his custom-made shelves..damn the space! and my hand and leg is bruises all around!

2) My home work..my project is all not complete..always rush to the last min and always messy! damn stress! i nd more time...i still have 2 more to complete and due is 9 and 10 march!!!errrrgh!!

GOD please spare me more time!!!

"Surprised" Bday Party

A "Surprised" Birthday Party planned by him..which I'm not supposed to know but too bad..I'm clever...

To be honest...it was really sweet of him to plan bcos this is the first time he planned my birthday after all this years..(3 yrs only..)

Very thoughtful of him..he booked a Chalet at Changi Aloha with 4 rooms with living rm, dinning rm and a kitchen.  Surrounded with greens and sea..no one around or near us..just a stand-alone bunglow..We had lots of fun, noise and laughter together with all our friends without any restriction. A string of colourful balloons tied at the entrance of the drive ways..though the balloon went flat b4 i've arrived but still it was beautiful..  Well prepared BBQ food by him and his sis..the pork chop was fantastic and chix wings was well marinate and all time favourites...the mushroom wrapped with bacon.. YUMMY~~

Cartons of beer by Peikio peeps and lovely bday cakes by CCK peeps and my new bling bling hp casing by PK n Micos..

As for him...a red S$10 note folded into a heart shape by him. (my heart is really warm

I would like to say...

"Thank you guys, i believe w/o your help, he will be octupus..hee =p"
Also,
"Thank you my love..u are really sweet and thoughtful.."

Shall uploads the picture soon...

Love ya.=] ('v')

My first visit to Polyclinics..

I was sick for the past few days..ever since last thursday...down with flu and fever and cough..till today I am still not recovering yet..

I went to polyclinics last friday to see doc and it was my first time(becos of stupid policy of co, ONLY POLYCLINIC MC is vaild)..unexpected q at 0730hr..it was a long long q and i have to q for 20 mins for self registration and 30 mins for counter to register again as it was my first time and waited at the waiting area to see doc for another 45 mins..

Went in and told doc about my illness..checked and came out of the consultation room after 5 mins with 2 day MC which leads to..I will miss my lunch and dinner function on Sat = to my fun and wonderful gathering with my Secondary friends is all gone GONE!..in the end..the med didn't really work on my sickness..the nose drip was totally rubbish..didn't help at all..i still suffering of my ear and nose block..and it is damn painful when ur ear got block and in the meantime you nd to "blow" ur nose...as well as the cough syrup and also the flu med. The only med help was the fever med...all the above cause me $16 plus parking charges $2.65 for the "bloody" time wasted...

Now, back in office..still suffering with the stupid block nose and ear. I am going to see Company doc for my stupid damage at the polyclinic and ask for better medications.

Btw, tmr is my birthday!!! yeah~ even though I'm sick..but dear have a surprise party for me..I am looking forward for this party and hopefully the magic med given by my Co. doc is able to help me recover in time!!
Yahooo~~~

Updates..

Updates...

Done with ROM booking and did some research on photographer as well as my wedding dress...
Will head down to suntec this weekend to do more research on Bridal packages..

Hopefully..i will be able to settle everything by end of feb or march..after that..work all my fats and shake them off my body...heee =]

CNY..hmmmhmm..how should i express myself for this CNY..
- was happy with all the fun and laughter during gathering
- upset and luck was not good for gambling..lose all my red packet money with extra money...
- upset w his action but...i still love him after his act..

Last nite, he made me realise something..which is...I noe no matter wat..we will go thru all the good times and bad times together. And i know..he care about me =]

Mayb this is wat we know as blessing in disguise? I hope this "disguise" is his and mine last time..

Chinese New Year!!!

Happy Chinese New Year to ALL!!

Gong Xi Fa Da Cai!

Soon, we will be sending the OX off and welcoming the TIGER! Elderly always said tiger is a bad year but some says is a good year..because it older days, tiger pictures is place outside the door to "protect/against" the evil to enter.

But to me.. superstitious is good in a way but not to the extreme...bcos extreme equal to "troublesome" which will leads to alot of things can't be done..just like elderly does not encourage couple to get married in TIGER year..becos is not good...

Still, ppl like me..i believe as long we (a couple) give and take, understanding the marriage life will be good..and blissful..

Anyway, we or myself should enjoy the "last" year of CNY and target to collect as many ANG BAOs as I can..cos nxt year I will be the one giving and not receiving le...sob sob~~

found a new bridal..thanks to Jacelle

Jacelle? she is not my friend but she is one of the beautiful bride i've seen and her pictures was taken by Lawrence (jun's & bell's AD Photographer).

I send her msg thru FB and I got to know her BS..she paid for $700 plus SGD and the studio pic are all taken in JB. The pictures are really nice so as the gown..its lovely and sweet...

But..JB lei...it is trouble and tired to go in and out..if there's jam it is WORST! And i know he doesn't like to go there especially when we know it will jam always...

Anyway, thank you Jacelle for introducing me such a lovely BS. =]

ermmm...checklist...

Preparation for wedding you will nd to have a checklist, budget list and list of vendor for you to compare the charges...www.singaporebrides.com is a good website to source for help..

Checklist for me... N=NO, Y=YES..
so lets see..how many NO n YES.... =/

9 MONTHS TO GO

• Book a wedding date with ROM - N
• Confirm venue and discuss menu. - Y
• Buy wedding bands. - N
• Organise your entertainment. - N
• Music selection - N
• Confirm salon, dresses and suits. Book hair and makeup. - N
• Shop for bridesmaids' and groomsmen's outfits, wedding favors etc. - N
• Compile the guest list with your fiance/fiancee and both parents. - N
• Enquire about wedding car rentals. - N

6 MONTHS TO GO

• Confirm all vendors for music, invitations, flowers etc. - N
• Book Chalet or Rooms for Brother and Sister. - N
• Confirm menus - N

3 MONTHS TO GO

• Finalise guest list and start planning seating arrangements. - N
• Confirm transportation for AD - N
• Send reminders for venues - N
• Research and book photography/videography packages. - N
• Confirm all wedding decor ideas, bouquets, centerpieces. - N
• Discuss different looks with hair and makeup artists and go for trials. Confirm looks. - N

2 MONTHS TO GO

• Send out local invitations. - N
• Choose thank-you gifts for attendants - N
• Organise seating arrangements. - N

1 MONTH TO GO

• Chase late RSVPs, finalise guest list and seating arrangements. - N
• Confirm that your gowns and those of your bridesmaids will be ready on time. - N
• Prepare fees or hongbao where applicable, e.g. for officiant, and your bridesmaids and groomsmen. - N
• Start breaking in your shoes so they won't pinch on the day. - Y
• Confirm all other arrangements that have not been finalised. - N

1 - 2 WEEKS TO GO

• Collect dresses. - N
• Enjoy your hen and stag dos. - N
• Arrange for bridal flowers to be sent to your home early on the day. - N
• Finalise all minor arrangements that haven't been do. - N
• Arrange for a bridesmaid to accompany and help you on the day. - N
• Give all payments to best man; leave him to pay the respective people. - N
• Booking for facial, pedi and medi, spa - N

ON THE DAY

• Let your chief bridesmaid or planner take charge of everything which includes reminding the other attendants of their duties. - N
• Relax and enjoy your wedding day ! - I WILL!

So many N and hardly see a Y.....i'm so so so out of time!!!!

I shall update this list very time i blog...

tired...slpy...no mood..

these days I'm so tired..tired w the wedding prep and tired w my homework..and...house chores too...
how i wish i could just tuck in bed and slp thru the 2 day? or more? haha...i need to rest rest rest..... getting all the outbreak on my face and putting weight..dunnoe why?

i need to pamper myself and i need my beauty sleep!!!!!!

*yawn~~

Searching for.....

I have been searching for my wedding favors since last week..and still can't make up my mind...reasons are:
1) Over budget
2) Too many choice
3) I cant decide what to give

See! Isn't it beautiful and wonderful with below favors?

Poker Chips


Poker cards

Tea spoon tea infuser

Heart Shape measuring Spoon

Tea Pot tea infuser

Match box

Tissue in packet

I just can't make up my mind.. I dun wan to give candle or chocolate which is too common... I wan something that is uncommon or a gift that is useful...for example the tea infuser or the poker card to keep my guest entertain or maybe...matchbox for them to go smoking? hahaha..

*i shouldn't encourage my guests to smoke

BUT the ideas i got are so so not common rite?

Anyway, I have already sent the order to the supplier to check on the quotation as all this are in USD no SGD...

Now...wat is nxt? ermmmm.... mceee and florist...to be arrange...n YES THE IMPORTANT one..I HAVEN SOURCE FOR MY BRIDAL GOWN/SHOP...PHOTOGRAPHER TOOOOOOOoooooo!!!! oh shit!

(God! Pls save me and pls grant him to b a more patient and resourceful man!)

STOP thinking you still have time for preparation..dude...

*PS. I love u..no angry =)

Wedding bells....ringing ringing and now...

Wedding bells is ringing ringing ringing.....

ever since last year..attended my close gf's wedding and being a part of her happiness make me felt so honor...and so does bell's wed. We had great fun "disturbing" the brothers with all my evil ideas..hot cakes with chili tuna and lots of maple syrup, bittergourd juice with lemon and chinese tea leaves...taking photo around the hotel also so fun..

I just can't stop smiling and thinking back all the fun we had..to b honest, it is very tiring but it is really FUN!

Now..my wedding bell is ringing too...thanks to bell..

I always tot that i'm able to cope this stress like finding hotels or restaurant for our day but it is so stressful when you can't find one that can hold 60 to 70 tables on this day (bcos it a hot day, a weekend). Now, I found a place that is end of west hopefully all the guest could come.

Next, is to settle my bridal gown and photographer and ermmm...wedding favors.....etc...

Wish me luck... =]

losing weight..

losing weight is always hard to maintain...has been trying to lose weight over the week just to get myself ready and fit into the cheong sum which bell's mtm for us for her wedding...

*shocking! i didn't expect myself to put on that much tat i have to redo the cheong sum at $40 which is damn ex..but..wat to do..LL lor..

ltr in the evening will be going to chinatown to collect my cheong sum.. hopefully the dress is done and i can fit in with extra tiny space for me to eat and drink... also not forgetting to get the bb cream from this wonderful shop that sells beauty products from "nu ren wo zui da". I got my bb cream from that shop...its good..non oily and it is will cover off my freckles..not completely but it does lighter the freckles...will be getting 1 more for my bro's gf.. =]

about us and only me...從開始到現在

Last nite, i was feeling low...cried, drank a btl of beer and I'm tired over me being to stubborn in our relationship..

I always loves to be sticky around each other..like we can't do without each other unless the death do us apart..
And..i always let him be..drink with friends, club and do wat he thinks he should be doing with his own space but i was wrong...i can't...i wan him to change...change him to someone i wan to be with...someone do things together, go party together, attend function together, spending equal time with our family together....

Thinking back, I wish i could turn back time..back to 3 yrs ago and stopped that moment when i was at Istanbul airport to transit to Swiss for my studies..bcos at that time I truely know and feel he love me..

Now...i'm not sure..

Maybe he still love and never change but I'd change....I love him even more and I guess I've loved him too much..
i guess after all.. i'm N.A.I.V.E. naive is the word to decribe me when i'm in relationship...

I nv nv nv say he is the wrong man that i want to spend my life with...but i can't accept that I'm at home and he is out to party and he thinks is rite to do so...i'm tired...i've lost my way...i lost the always in us...i couldn't find us in the same picture anymore...i hate this feeling!!!

Wat should i do??

Learn to let go?

I am so so so emo...i need to b alone..going away for awhile......

First poker game...

First time playing poker and i realise I'm not a good poker player..i just not smart enough..when is time to raise, i didn't and when is time to fold, i didn't...but it was a good experience afterall...

Playing poker online is still better...cos the players dun get to see my expression so i will be able to play any how i want...

playing poker nd to focus n bluff..u nd to understand the game well and also bluff at the rite time so first timer will always get the pinch..*ooouch

Back to wrk after MC...new year checklist

1 day mc gone..and back to ofc again...feeling so weak and walking like a zombie...the med is strong and good in a way...throat felt better..no more running nose but nose is still blocked...

well...i nd to have a new year checklist for grooming myself with new look...ermmm...
1) get my hair done (rebond?perm?)
2) target to lose weight b4 bell's wedding (2 wks)
3)
4)

i nd to time to think but the first 2 is wat i nd to do...at least for now!!!

lets get my ass working...

Last nite, i was watching quan yi fung and christopher lee hosting the "xin qing da dong yuan 2" the story of jia yong..i really find him a cheerful guy..always in postitive thinking and his mum is really "wei da" bcos she kept the house clean to make his family feel home and she took care of him thru all this years...her loves for him I'm really "pei fu".

Jia yong and family..jia you!

First day of work in 2010 with MC cover

yaya...i noe monday blues but i didn't expect to turn out to be sick sick and sick...bad flu w cough and my poor boy down with cough and fever...

And this time i'm clever..becos i dragged myself to work and went to co. doc so that I will get an authorised MC to shut my co.

Now, I'm feeling weak after the med....i nd to slp....